Emotional Whiplash - Pete Wilson

Great post to read! This particular post is about two families; both experiencing joys of having a baby but the outcome is so different for each of them post delivery. Regardless of the circumstance in this post, the statements he makes can be applied to us at any given point(s) in our life. http://withoutwax.tv/2010/05/21/emotional-whiplash/

Pete says “Isn’t it amazing how in a moment like that you so desperately want God near, but at the same time you also feel secretly mad at Him?” Do you know how many times I desperately want to feel His presence but yet too angry to care where he was (even though I knew he was there) These words resonate to the deepest of my bones right now for some reason. Granite, I haven’t had the heartfelt and overwhelming pain of giving birth and losing a child within minutes of their precious life. But through a miscarriage I experienced a loss I wasn’t quite ready for. And for someone who so desperately wants to be a mom and to experience the joys of motherhood I thought that God was being cruel to me the day it happened. I don't feel truer words have been spoken then when Pete said that the Christian reality is often more full with questions than answers. I believe that is because we know God’s heart, we know what he wants for his people – yet sometimes the approach He takes is unconventional in our eyes. Not quite sure why this post just hit me the way it did; but it took the sour mood I was in and turned it somber. Maybe one reason it hits is given the appointments I have today to start my weight loss plan in order to work towards the goal of having a baby. And I think right now I'm scared/worried because I don't know what the outcome is going to be. I know what I want it to be - but does God want the same thing. Oh how I pray he does; but I stay guarded in case it's not. So for me today - I have more questions than answers yet I hold onto faith. Believing my faith will prevail over the doubt that is currently filling my head....